Kevin shares his experience
Tears of joy and gratitude came to my eyes as I listened to my newly completed collection of soul-inspired songs on Eternal. I am overwhelmed with joy knowing that Eternal has come together in such a beautiful way and that it is being released.
Reflecting back, it had been a long and difficult trek, but I had put a deep lack of motivation and self-doubt behind me, and had come back into writing and producing music. Permeating through my life experiences was the memory of the sudden loss, during my college years, of my youthful mother. In my younger years I would compose piano pieces for her knowing that she was my guardian angel. Eventually, I came to realize that it was largely her passing and the deep heartbreak that ensued that served as the catalyst for me to drop my hesitant pursuits toward law and politics to pursue what really stirred my soul – writing music and sharing it with others. To this day she remains my guardian angel and helps keep me inspired and growing.
While I felt a calling to produce my first 3 albums, Eternal was different. I truly believe I was fulfilling my destiny; expressing a spiritual journey that was similar to others who have walked the same path. Supporting this belief were the amazing happenstances and synchronicities along the way such as the time I found myself hosting the great musician and cellist, Francois le Roux, in our home, and the wonderful recording sessions that followed.
It was in 2009 when I began to neglect my connection to Spirit and abandoned many of my traditional religious beliefs. Losing this connection was like taking off a warm coat in the frigid snow. My spiritual solitude grew deeper and I began to experience persistent fears, feeling unsafe and disconnected from meaning and purpose. I even doubted if I would create music again, depriving me of the joy of sharing these heart-felt creations with others.
As a caring and devoted father and husband, I later realized that I was longing to find my spiritual essence and reconnect with a spiritual community. This led my loving wife, Jennifer, and me back to the Unity Church we had occasionally visited years earlier. It became clear that this was our spiritual home, and with Jennifer’s urging, I also began attending their men’s group.
Once again, I was finding my soul’s way to a deeper truth. One Sunday during service the sun shone down through a small window in the sanctuary. A bright ray of light solely and squarely warmed my face. One of my close friends commented that I looked like an angel had illuminated me with God’s light. I believed it was a gift of God’s grace and love shining on me, showing my path.
The bond with the men ran deep and our weekly gatherings fed my soul. The principle of living and connecting from the heart and not the head began to take hold. My family’s love of the church and its teachings grew, and we grew closer as a family.
Many other special moments and unexplained coincidences ensued. My journey felt magical, yet destined. I began to believe my newfound faith took me to new heights. For the next few years I began to forgive myself and others, and shed old resentments. I also began to pray and meditate before bedtime.
It was during these meditations that something amazing would happen. In the deep stillness I would feel the presence of Truth – of God. Although as a child I felt a connection with God, this was unlike anything I had experienced before. It was a deep sense of peace, love and acceptance. It was Eternal Grace — a sense that I was fully a part of this Loving Spirit, The Christ, and that at my core I was like all souls — Eternal.
With my involvement in our church community, and my commitment to our men’s group came amazing opportunities to collaborate and record with other musicians. In addition to Francois le Roux, I was blessed to work with such artists as Steve Birch and Shawnda Rowe-Birch, Craig Toungate and several others. Out of these sessions the songs of Eternal began to flow, leading to the completion of the album.
It was my Hero’s Journey. After trials and tribulations, I had found my way home. My faith had grown deeper than ever, built on real life experiences and a reconnection with Spirit. I had changed and truly wanted to radiate the light within and extend my love and compassion to all. My hope is that my journey will inspire others to look within themselves in stillness, feel the Eternal presence of God, and share their love and Eternal light with the world.
Today, I am filled with immense gratitude knowing Eternal is perfect in its own way. I realize that, had I rushed to publish in 2014, it would have sounded nothing like it does today. Everything that went into making this album, including the ups and downs, were absolutely the way it was supposed to happen – in perfect cosmic and Divine order.